blackholesunshower

Dear Chris,

It’s been ten weeks since you left this world. Most of the grief books I’ve read since you passed (and my Dad) say to write your loved one a letter to get the grief out, so here it goes!

First, I want to kind of apologize. I’ve been SO focused on HOW you left us, it has deterred me from HOW you LIVED and how much you GAVE to us. You gave so much! You gave the world your voice, music and poetry. You opened up to us in such a courageous way, sharing what was deep inside you, the good, the bad and the ugly and you transformed that into amazing, unparalleled lyrics. You gave EVERYTHING you had every night for so long. You never dialed it in (at least we couldn’t tell) And your voice! Not just your singing voice. You stood up for the “little guy” the average guy on the street… and most of all children. You loved children. You seemed to be such a loving father! But, along with most your other fans, I could only see that looking in from the outside.

As hard as it is losing you, I just want to take a moment to be grateful of the time I had with you. Seeing you perform was such bliss! Thank you. Thank you for saying thank you like ALL the time during your shows. Some people – ok, lots of people – may think I’m a bit “off” for loving you so much. They may think I’m a crazed fan! LOL … but I like to think that I’m pretty damn lucky, to have an artist I appreciate so much, someone who followed me through most of my life. I can really only count those on one hand, and you are on the very top of that list. I guess I can really count you as a friend, someone who has always been there for me. Most friends come and go, but not you! That’s why it’s been so hard losing you. Thankfully, you left us all with so much to remember you by, and trust me, we will.

Thanks Chris!

Yours,

Emily