blackholesunshower

It’s been two weeks since you left this earth, Chris, and I miss you so much. Everyday I feel your presence as I listen to your voice. I always did that anyway, but it’s taken new meaning as of late.

 Shortly after your passing I had this tattoo done in your honor.

I want the truth the Higher Truth the HIGHER TRUTH….

I absolutely love that album from the minute I heard it. Like most of Chris’s creations it oozed honesty and unlike previous releases I could feel the rawness of it all. It seemed so stripped down, with just Chris and one more musician  playing the instruments. I love that!

 Never in a million years did I anticipate that not even a year after I met you (more on that later) I’d be posting a picture of your gravesite. My whole body shudders at this thought. I am really trying to find closure in this.

My mind goes from – “he didn’t really know what he was doing to, he was so alone and hurting, to his “larger than life” flame just blew out…” I just don’t know what to think or do.

I want to get in my car and just drive non stop to this site and sit and listen and breathe. I want to drive to Chris’s home and knock on the door and embrace those poor babies, Vicky and the rest of the family. I want to shout from the rooftops how amazing Chris is… and DON’T YOU ALL GET IT!

But here I sit, carrying on. The world carries on, even without Chris despite at times feeling like it’s all just sitting still.